Friday, December 10, 2010

Poem: BEING A MAN

“Be a man,” they say,
“and don’t cry.”
And I wonder why
a man is not meant to show emotion.
A man must wear a mask –
And when I ask
Why, he says, “Because I’m a man!”
But I think a man can
Display feelings.
I do – and more –
I shout when I score!
And when someone’s a bore,
I show it – for sure!
Slamming doors brings relief
When I’m cross.
When my sister annoys me
I yell
And I tell
Her where to get off
‘Cos I’m the boss!
And I hope when I’m older,
I’ll continue to show
Both joy and sorrow,
Compassion and pain;
And maybe – just maybe –
When I am a man,
I’ll help make the world sane –
With emotion.

John Davies




Saturday, November 20, 2010

Poem: What it is

It is nonsense
says Reason
It is what it is
says Love

It is unhappiness
says Caution
It is nothing but pain
says Fear
It is hopeless
says Insight
It is what it is
says Love

It is ridiculous
says Pride
It is careless
says Caution
It is impossible
says Experience
It is what it is
says Love
~ by Erich Fried

A brief history...

... of Muslims in Britain

Saturday, October 09, 2010

I don't normally like the daily mail, but...

An interesting and revealing article on an English mother's perspective of having a mixed race child. (The guardian version of the article is below, as well as another).

'I love my mixed race baby - but why does she feel so alien?'by LOWRI TURNER
Last updated at 16:46 13 July 2007

"She's getting very dark, isn't she?" This is what one of my friends recently said about my much adored - 12-week-old daughter.
She didn't mean to be rude. But it was a comment that struck me with the force of a jab to the stomach.
Immediately, I was overwhelmed by a confusion of emotions. I felt protective, insulted, worried, ashamed, guilty, all at once. The reason? My lovely, wriggly, smiley baby is mixed race.
Now, I think of myself as pretty 'right on'. My home is on the border of the London Republic of Hackney. I've been to the Notting Hill Carnival, even if I found the music a bit loud. Yet now I realise what a 'white' world I inhabit.
I am white and I have two sons from my first marriage who are both milky complexioned and golden haired. My twin sister, who I spend a lot of time with, has a Danish partner. As a consequence, she has two boys who are also pale skinned and flaxen haired.
Into this positively Scandinavian next generation, I have now injected a tiny, dark-skinned, dark-haired girl. To say she stands out is an understatement.
My colouring and that of my children has never really been an issue before. However, three years ago I met the man who became my second husband and who is the father of my daughter.
Although born in the UK, his parents came from India in the Sixties. This makes him British-Asian and our daughter mixed race.
There is another more PC term for the plump little bundle I strap to my front. She is 'dual heritage'. It's a bit trendy, but I quite like it. It implies a pride in coming from two cultures, rather than the less attractive connotations of 'mixed race'.
The usual time something is labelled 'mixed' is when it's a packet of nuts and they've bulked out the luxury cashews with cheaper peanuts. I'm not sure I want my daughter to be regarded as an adulterated version of some pure original. Still, it is the most accepted description.
The truth is, whatever the label, the fact there is a label proves that my daughter's conflicting parentage matters.
At the more frothy end of the scale, mixed-race children are regarded as pretty dolls ? white kids with a nice tan.
When I was pregnant and people asked me about the child I was having, and I explained her father was Indian, they would often coo something along the lines of: "Ooh, she's going to be beautiful!" as if I was discussing a new rose, made from an exotic cross-breeding programme.
On a less benevolent level, mixed-race children can receive a hostile welcome from both white and black communities. Being neither one thing nor another may get you on the cover of Vogue, but it isn't an easy way to make friends

But this is 2007, surely things are more enlightened than that? I hope so, but I fear not.
One reason for my fear is my own mixed reactions to my daughter. Don't get me wrong, I love her. She is the child I didn't think I'd have after my first marriage broke up. She is the only granddaughter in our family and we all dote on her.
But when I turn to the mirror in my bedroom to admire us together, I am shocked. She seems so alien. With her long, dark eyelashes and shiny, dark brown hair, she doesn't look anything like me.
I know that concentrating on how my daughter looks is shallow. She is a person in her own right, not an accessory to me. But still, I can't shake off the feeling of unease.
I didn't realise how much her looking different would matter and, on a rational level, I know it shouldn't. But it does.
Evolution demands that we have children to pass on our genes, hence the sense of pride and validation we get when we see our features reappearing in the next generation.
With my daughter, I don't have that. Do black fathers who marry white women and then have paler-skinned children feel my sense of loss? Or maybe Chinese mothers or Middle-Eastern grandparents grieve when they see a child they know to be their own, but whose features don't reflect that?
I worry that, as my daughter doesn't look like me, people will assume she is adopted. After all, it's all the rage in showbiz circles.
Madonna famously scooped up a black child when she wanted to be a mother again and Angelina Jolie appears to be assembling a 'pick 'n' mix' of kids from different countries. It's all very United Colours of Benetton, isn't it?
In the real world, I fear for my daughter's sense of self. She has a tiny foot in two cultures. How will she negotiate a path between the two? I worry that my sons will feel less of a kinship with their sister because she is different, although there is no sign of that.
As for myself, there is an inescapable status issue to address. White women who have non-white children are stigmatised as 'Tracy Towerblocks' living on benefits, most of which they spend on lager and fags.
Even if I don't fit this profile, my daughter's difference definitely points out the fact that my children come from two different fathers.
If I wanted to pass us off as a nice, neat nuclear family, she would blow my cover at once.
But it is more than that. I am frightened, frightened of others' reactions to her, as well as my own. I didn't think of myself as racist and yet my daughter has shown me a side of myself about which I feel deeply uncomfortable.
Even admitting to having mixed feelings about her not being blonde and blue eyed, I feel disloyal and incredibly guilty.
I know the obvious comment is that I must have known how a child of our union would look when I married an Indian man, but it is a wise woman who thinks that far ahead when she falls in love.
I didn't think about any of this before I got pregnant. I wanted to have a baby. Her colour and culture were immaterial then.
But self-flagellation is not useful. I have more pressing concerns. I am now the mother of a 'black' child, even if she is more the hue of weak tea than espresso.
This is a role for which I am utterly unprepared. Part of me thinks I should be playing sitar music to her in her cot, mastering pakoras and serving them dressed in a sari, but that would be fantastically fake coming from me.
When she was born, pale but with lots of dark hair, I asked the midwife if her eyes would stay blue. 'Asian genes are very strong,' she said in what I took to be an ominous tone.
No more Brady Bunch kids for me. The midwife has been proved right and every day my baby's eyes get a little darker.
Even so, when she looks up at me as I feed her, my heart melts. My love may not be colour blind, but hers is, and that is truly humbling.


daily mail

guardian version

My mixed emotionsLowri Turner had a liberal upbringing and married an Asian man, but it wasn't until she had a mixed race baby that she began to confront her own prejudices

The Guardian, Saturday 7 July 2007
We all know the theory: love is colour blind. It is a somewhat simplistic and sugary ethos, but one that many of us were brought up on. My parents - my mother was a magistrate, my father a prison reformer - were hand-wringing liberals, who fervently held to this notion. When I went to the local primary school, my class was a boisterous melee of white British, West Indian, Greek Cypriot, Irish and Ugandan Asian kids. It wasn't all happy, smiley multi-culturalism, but all we rubbed along pretty well.

There was one mixed-race couple who had children at the school who were then quite unblushingly referred to as "half-caste". As a kid myself, I was fascinated. Did the mum and dad know, I wondered, whether their next baby was going to be black, white or brown, or if their hair would be straight or curly? I used to try to stand behind one of the girls from this family in assembly, so I could study the cornrows in her blond afro hair close-up.

I went on to mostly date white boys, but not always. When I was in my late 20s, I remember telling my mother that I had a new boyfriend who was black. "I don't care what colour he is, is he nice to you?" she said forcefully. "Blimey!" I thought, "it's like having Nelson Mandela for a mum."

It was this same attitude she showed when I married my second husband 18 months ago. When I met him, I didn't know his parents were Indian. He didn't look Indian. He didn't sound Indian. He was born in Glasgow. His skin was paler than you might expect. In the new multi-ethnic Britain, it is often difficult to tell what anyone is. And does it matter anyway? Certainly, back then, it didn't to me.

Anyone who dates someone of a different colour and claims that their hue is immaterial is lying, either to themselves or to everyone else. When a black man and a white woman date, they are both are making personal and political statements, even if they are subliminal. However, the colour of a person's skin is just one of many factors about them that add up to the person you fall in love with. I have a Greek Cypriot girlfriend who is married to a man whose parents are from Jamaica. She says she no longer "sees" him as black and I believe her. However, things get a whole lot more complicated when you have a child.

Ten weeks ago, I gave birth to a daughter. She is undeniably beautiful, but she is also alien to me. I was a blonde child and these days, admittedly helped along more than a bit, I am still blonde, as are my other two children, whose father was white. But my tiny daughter has dark brown hair, dark eyelashes and eyebrows and even a dusting of downy dark brown hair touching the edges of her ears. While my eyes and those of my sons are hazel and my skin and that of my sons is white and slightly motley, hers is an even tone, like very weak tea. She is a black child or is she?

I am not sure yet of the etiquette. Do I call her black or Asian or mixed race, or dual heritage? Is it necessary to call her anything at all? I didn't have any such considerations when I had my sons. They were just mine. They didn't need classification. When I registered my daughter at the local GP, I had to put a tick in a quite unfamiliar box - the one marked "mixed race, white/Asian" - on the "racial monitoring" form. It felt weird and oddly public. She was being labelled at seven weeks old.

What I now realise is that, having had my daughter, I have taken my first steps on the incredibly fragile terrain of mixed-race modern Britain and, as I begin to pick my way across, I am acutely aware of my clumsiness. I am not alone. Look around, there seem to be mixed-race couples everywhere. We are raising a new generation of children who span different races, cultures and religions. Yet, how many of the parents, like me, find themselves unprepared for the challenges ahead?

In my head, I knew that my daughter was unlikely to have the milky complexion and blond hair of my sons. And I don't love her less because she's darker. However, I wasn't prepared for the confusion of emotions I would feel when I look at her.

When I was pregnant and people said things like "Ooh another little blonde one, then?" I would explain that her father was Indian and they would then execute a swift conversational handbrake turn and coo about how pretty she would look, usually mentioning some friend who had a white/Asian child and finishing with: "They are beautiful, aren't they?". This treating of mixed-race babies like dolls who come in a range of attractive hues like options on a Dulux colour chart shocked me. My daughter should not be defined by her colour. She is an individual with unique talents and qualities - now, there is my mother talking. And in an ideal world, the way she looks shouldn't be an issue.

But we don't live in an ideal world and the way we all look matters. My daughter's appearance is an issue to others as well as myself. A (white) friend visited yesterday and having examined the baby, she announced: "She's getting quite dark, isn't she?" And I am ashamed to admit that in a reversal of what happens on holiday when you study your skin in the mirror every day hoping for a deepening tan, I too now find myself examining my daughter for signs that her skin is becoming a deeper shade of brown and being perturbed if I find them.

As I read that, I am horrified. But, then, having a mixed race baby forces you to face uncomfortable truths about yourself and the outside world that it is possible to be entirely unaware of if you stay within an easy, uncontroversial all-white sphere.

All parents have fears for their children. We worry they will be knocked over by a car, or snatched like little Madeleine McCann. I now look at my daughter and wonder whether her future will be in some way proscribed by the colour of her skin? And, if I, her own mother, am already so acutely aware of it, am I not already narrowing her horizons for her?

I console myself that my swirling emotions are part of a process. I am coming to terms with my daughter's existence in exactly the same way I had to process the reality of having first one son, then another, when I had always imagined myself the mother of girls. I am now quite good at building Bionicles, but I had to get over my grief at the loss of the pink, girly fantasy first.

Part of the grief I am going through with my daughter is the loss of the possibility that she will look like me. Both mothers and fathers, not to mention grandmothers and grandfathers, routinely bend over the crib, examining a newborn's face for some sign of their own genetic heritage. People say my daughter has my eyes or my mouth, but I know they are just trying to be kind. She looks as similar to me as I do to Naomi Campbell. I didn't expect this to matter to me, but it does. I look at my baby and wonder if people will look at her and assume I am not her mother?

I realise that this is a deeply shallow and vain thing to say.

There is also an inescapable issue of status. Judgments are made about a white woman who gives birth to a black child. She is stereotyped as a Vicky Pollard figure, eking out her days pushing a buggy through a supermarket car park, wearing saggy leggings and fagging it. This image has been captured on screen by Kathy Burke as Waynetta Slob, who memorably declared that she wanted her very own "little brown baby" just like all the other mums she knew on the estate. Am I one of these women now? Apparently, yes - particularly since I am now a single parent, having split up from my daughter's father.

Similar judgments are made about white women who go out with black men. When I was dating the man who my mother wanted to hear was "nice", he helped me carry some luggage into a taxi and then got in. The driver asked me incredulously: "Is he coming with you?" as if he was some sort of porter. Black women had a habit of looking daggers at me in the street. But it's not until you have a baby with someone of a different colour that you feel the full weight of the judgment of strangers.

While I genuinely don't think that my not being Indian was a factor that counted against me with my husband or his family, I did underestimate the difference between our cultural backgrounds when we were first together. Our daughter will have to cope with being the product of two very different cultures. She will have to negotiate her own cultural identity, and I know too little to really help her.

I am intending to leave the Indian side of my daughter's upbringing to my in-laws. This may seem a cop out, but, frankly, I'm too knackered to do otherwise. If I had adopted her, social services would probably whip her away. However, working and bringing up three children, I haven't the energy to learn Hindi or make my own lassi.

So, what is the future for my multi-coloured family? We may look a bit peculiar, but we love each other. I parked the car at the petrol station the other day and, when I returned from paying, I saw my four-year-old asleep, with his head slumped sideways so that it rested, face down, at his sister's feet in her car seat. His seven-year-old brother was lying on the other side of my daughter, the thumb of one hand in his mouth, the other hand holding a bottle, feeding her. I thought how natural it all looked.

When I had my sons, I knew it was my job, as a parent, to help them learn about the world. With my daughter, it is she who is teaching me fundamental lessons about myself, even if not all of them are comfortable.


and an article on the race/mixed-race issue in the new york times

Editorial Observer: Contemplations on Being of Mixed Race in America

By EDUARDO PORTER
Published: August 10, 2008

As a multiracial and somewhat foreign person I have on occasion found myself on the receiving end of the same kind of unease that many Americans seem to have about Barack Obama’s ambiguous identity. He is either not black enough or too black. His name sounds odd. He had a weird childhood with kids who didn’t speak English.

Mr. Obama is not just politically atypical. He is unusual demographically. A recent paper by economists from Harvard, Yale and the University of Chicago said that in 2000 only one in 70 births in the United States came from mixed, black-white parents. In the 1980s it was one in 200. In the 1960s, when Mr. Obama was born, there were virtually none.

Black-white teens are so rare today, the researchers argued, that they feel they have to engage in more risky behavior to be accepted by others: drink more, fight more, steal more, do illegal drugs more than either blacks or whites — a pattern of behavior known to social scientists as the “marginal man.”

Perhaps this is true. Yet I would suggest that these outcomes say more about the context in which American multiracial kids grow up than about the kids themselves. The United States practices cleanly defined racial slotting.

I’m not an avid TV watcher, but when I watch, the black man gets the black woman and whites date whites. I have yet to see an ad with a mixed-race family. Whites marry blacks, but rarely. Over all, 5.7 percent of married couples in 2000 crossed racial boundaries.

The American approach to race is unique, in a way. In Brazil, with a history of slavery and racism as brutal as America’s, some 39 percent of the people define themselves as mixed race or “pardos.” By contrast, when the United States census in 2000 first allowed respondents to tick as many racial boxes as they wanted, only 2.4 percent ticked more than one. Never mind that genetic testing suggests a great deal of intermixing between Americans of African and European decent.

The son of a tallish, white father from Chicago and a short, brown Mexican mother of European and Indian blood, I’m not the same mix as Obama. As a colleague recently told me, I “read white.” Growing up in Mexico City, where power and skin color correlate at least as well as in the United States, I led a privileged existence. Still, being a mix was never an issue; most of my peers were too.

This is not to suggest Mexico has dealt with race any better. Racism just took different forms. European colonizers of modern-day Latin America encouraged the whitening of Indians and blacks. In the century after independence, ethnic loyalties were subsumed under a mixed Mexican identity as a way to merge Europeans and pre-Columbian indigenous nations into a modern Mexican state.

Today the Mexican census doesn’t even ask about race, and it only started asking about indigenous ethnicity in 2000. José Vasconcelos, a politician and philosopher, wrote in the 1920s that Mexicans were of the “cosmic race” — that which included all others. Yet Mexico’s state-sanctioned mestizo identity allowed its rulers to ignore its beleaguered indigenous populations — virtually defining them out of existence.

In the United States by contrast, racially inspired policies, whether they resulted in Jim Crow laws or affirmative action, fueled an urge to define and redefine hard racial boundaries. Close attention to race has forced uncomfortable issues of racial inequity into public debate, but has also gotten in the way of embracing a blended racial identity.

Fortunately, Americans seem to be slowly becoming more comfortable with racial intermingling. Newer immigrant groups with different experiences of race are already chipping away at the racial divide. About 10 percent of Asian Americans ticked two or more race boxes in the 2000 census. More than 15 percent of Hispanics marry non-Hispanics. And Hispanics are so confused about American racial categories that half of them can’t find an appropriate race box on the census form and tick “other race” instead.

For all the mistrust of Mr. Obama’s ancestry and ethnicity, he might even help this trend along, allowing blacks and whites to take a fresh look at each other. Then maybe people like me won’t need to engage in extreme behaviors to fit in.

Poem: Where Broccoli Comes From

Where Broccoli Comes From

Not many people know
that broccoli grows in the armpits
of very big green men
who live in the forest
and brave broccoli cutters
go deep into the forests
and they creep up on the
very big green men.
They wait for the
very big green men
to fall asleep
and the broccoli cutters
get out their
great big broccoli razors
and they shave the
armpits
of the very big green men.
And that’s where broccoli
comes from.
Not many people know that.

Just thought I’d let you know.


Michael Rosen

Thursday, September 09, 2010

While clearing out...

... I found some notes I had taken from way back when doing my History GCSE (more than a decade ago now), and found something I had noted down from a textbook - probably an advertisement from the time of prohibition in the United States:

'Ordinary law abiding citizens began to break the law by drinking:
" 'Come in and take a drop?' The first drop led to other drops. He dropped his position, he dropped his respectability, he dropped his fortune, he dropped his friends, he dropped finally all his prospects in this life, and his hopes for eternity; and then came the last drop on the gallows. BEWARE OF THE FIRST DROP."

Unfortunately, I don't know which textbook my teenage self noted this down from, or what the original source was, but an interesting take on the impact of alcohol, from early in the 20th century.

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

Back to the Facebook phenomenon...

... which I still find freaky.

An excerpt from the Guardian

Eric Schmidt, Google chief executive, recently reiterated his suggestion that internet users may one day be able to change their identities in order to distance themselves from personal information shared so freely in their formative years. "I don't believe society understands what happens when everything is available, knowable and recorded by everyone all the time," he told the Wall Street Journal.

Zuckerberg takes a different tack. "You have one identity. The days of you having a different image for your work friends or co-workers and for the other people you know are probably coming to an end pretty quickly … Having two identities for yourself is an example of a lack of integrity," he was quoted as saying in David Kirkpatrick's book, The Facebook Effect.


Guardian - issues of facebook and privacy in the technological age

For me, this indicates that either Zuckerberg is behaving like a businessman and defending his business against logic, or that he really does not understand that as you get older, do different things, and interact with different people, it is perfectly normal and natural to behave slightly differently to different people, and exhibit different facets of your personality in different situations. Of course, we have one identity. But not in the way Zuckerberg either understands it, or cleverly chooses to state it. There is no lack of integrity in behaving in one way with close family members and friends, having more private and in-depth conversations, and in a more superficial (but no less polite) way with acquantices or collegues. Not everyone needs to know everything about everyone one. And only the abnormally nosy (and those who potentially lack integrity) would want to have to have that level and depth of information on so many individuals.

Tuesday, September 07, 2010

Never understood taxes...

Tax code introductions


The three types of tax code

Suffix codes
One or more numbers followed by L, P, T, or Y Example: 345L, 456P or 0T The number plus ‘9’ is the amount of pay an employee can earn from you in a tax year before they pay any tax. For example a tax code 508L means the employee is entitled to £5,089 of tax-free pay in the tax year.
The letter determines how we’ll ask you to adjust the number part of the code to take account of any Budget changes that may affect the employee’s tax-free pay.
Prefix codes
Start with D or K Example D0 or K123 The code D0 means you must deduct tax at the higher rate from all pay.
The letter K means your employee has already used their tax-free allowances for the year. The number plus ‘9’ indicates how much must be added to their taxable income to make sure they pay tax on all the taxable income they have received. This may mean you end up deducting tax from their pay at higher rates than normal.
For example, K123 means £1,239 needs to be added to their taxable income to ensure they pay the right tax.
Letter only codes
BR or NT BR means you must deduct tax at the basic rate from all their pay.
NT means you mustn't deduct any tax from their pay.
Note: Only refund any tax deducted from an employee before the issue of an NT code when HMRC tells you to operate it on a cumulative basis.


DIY accounting


HMRC tax guidance for doctors

A summary from what appears to be a commercial company 'doctorstax.co.uk'

Sunday, June 06, 2010

British beaches

British beaches - From Yahoo
1. Bournemouth, Dorset
Bournemouth benefits from 7 miles of pure gold. One of the best city beaches in the UK , its soft sand and acres of space are perfect for families. It's won awards for cleanliness and on a clear day you can see out to the Needles on the Isle of Wight . True, it's not a deserted paradise, but you can't ask for much more so close to a major town. And with the building of Europe's first artificial surf reef, the beach is set to become one of the UK 's premier surfing spots.

2. West Wittering, West Sussex
West Wittering near Chichester manages to please all comers with expansive sands, superior water quality and a thriving dune ecosystem. The beach shelves gently towards the sea making it ideal for safe swimming and when the tide is out you can bask in shallow tidal pools warmed by the sun. If you feel restless you can walk around East Head, a sandy spit populated by absorbing coastal flora and fauna.

3. Croyde Bay, North Devon
Hammering surf and excellent surf schools and shops have sealed Croyde Bay 's reputation as North Devon 's best beach for catching waves. The village has retained an old world charm despite the influx of young surfers keen to party and the beach is big enough for sunbathers and swimmers, too.

4. Holy Island, Northumberland
One of the most haunting and beautiful places in Britain , Holy Island was an early centre of Christianity in the UK . Cut off from the mainland twice a day by the tide, it has a castle, an evocative ruined priory and mile upon mile of deserted sand. If you're in a reflective mood, this is the one for you. Watch out for grey seals and rare birds.

5. Holkham, Norfolk
Draped in dunes, Holkham is a deliciously secluded beach backed by scented pine forest. Sunbathe, horseride or explore 3 miles of seemingly measureless, creamy sands. And if you come to Holkham, you'll be in illustrious company. The Queen likes to walk her Corgis here and Gwyneth Paltrow strode across the sands for the final scene of Shakespeare in Love.

6. Great Bay, St Martin's, Isles of Scilly
Short on Kiss Me Quick hats and sickly sticks of rock but with charm to spare, Great Bay is the best beach in the Scillys. You can only reach it on foot, so the holiday hordes generally stay away. It's only a 20 minute walk from the quay and the journey's certainly worth it. Offshore, kelp forests sheltering colourful fish wave lazily in a cobalt sea and the arcing white sands are distinctly tropical.

7. Blackpool, Lancashire
Ice creams, saucy postcards, fish ‘n' chips, rock, donkey rides and deckchairs – Blackpool beach is the essence of the traditional British seaside. Apart from miles of sand you'll find slot machines, shows and some of the biggest and scariest rollercoasters in the UK.

8. Abereiddi Blue Lagoon, Pembrokeshire
Not strictly a beach, the Blue Lagoon is actually an old quarry with a tidal channel to the sea. The quarry forms a satisfying circle, protecting and enclosing a disc of shimmering azure water. It's a romantic spot reached by walking passed ruined slate workers' cottages and quarry buildings. Surrounded by cliffs, it's popular with cliff jumpers and coasteerers.

9. Sinclair's Bay, Caithness
This all but deserted beach just south of John O'Groats has soft white sand that's lapped by waters tinged an otherworldly blue. It's hard to find a more atmospheric beach. This one's guarded by two 16 th -century castles and welcomes porpoises and whales. With 4 miles of uninterrupted sand you won't have any problems bagging a good spot.

10. Porthcurno, Cornwall
This glorious, unspoilt beach hugged by craggy cliffs has fine white sand made from sea shells. There are cliff-top paths, rock pools to discover and a stream trickling down the beach – ideal for paddling children. Nearby, the extraordinary Minnack Theatre hosts open-air plays with views of the ocean.

road trips i would like to do

CANADA

Nova Scotia

Alberta and British Columbia

Thursday, June 03, 2010

The wise humanitarian souls...

Grey power free Gaza - Guardian

The key figures of the Free Gaza movement are all women of pensionable age, who came out of the 1960s protest generation

They are the generation who protested in the 1960s and have girded themselves again to campaign for Palestinian rights. The Free Gaza movement, which chartered the Challenger yacht as part of the flotilla that was attacked by Israel on Monday, is led by a group of women of pensionable age.

Founding members of the organisation, which is also operating the MV Rachel Corrie, include a US-based 85-year-old Holocaust survivor, Hedy Epstein, and a 76-year-old grandmother originally from Bolton, Mary Hughes.

The four activists running Free Gaza's communications and legal operations from Cyprus during the flotilla are all women aged between 65 and 85.

"Part of it could be because we are children of the 1960s and we came out of the anti-Vietnam movement," said Greta Berlin, 69, also one of the founding members. Speaking from Bolton, Mary Hughes's brother, Brian Thompson, said he had not heard from her since an email last week. "Mary isn't a political person. This is not an anti-Israel stance she is taking, it is a humanitarian one," he said.

Flotilla update

From the Guardian

• Released activists have said Israeli commandos opened fire before boarding Gaza flotilla. Turkish activist Nilufer Cetin said Israeli troops opened fire before boarding the Turkish-flagged ferry Mavi Marmara, which was the scene of the worst clashes and all the fatalities. Israeli officials have said that the use of armed force began when its boarding party was attacked.

• Israel's military may have sabotaged two boats carrying Free Gaza activists after both malfuntioned at the same time in the same way prior to the raid. The ships were forced into port in Cyprus on Friday evening when both their steering systems broke down on the journey from Heraklion in Crete, a campaign spokeswoman said.

• Egypt has temporarily lifted its blockade of the Gaza Strip to allow aid into the area. Several thousand Gazans are reportedly making a dash to the Egyptian border, hoping to take advantage of a rare chance to escape the blockaded territory. Cars with suitcases piled on their roofs are streaming to the border, while many others are lugging overstaffed bags on foot. Dozens of Hamas police with automatic weapons are patrolling the area to maintain order.

• The MV Rachel Corrie, which was part of the Freedom Flotilla but had fallen behind, will still make for Gaza, according to the Free Gaza Movement. Spokeswoman Greta Berlin said the vessel would probably arrive next Monday or Tuesday. An unnamed Israeli marine lieutenant told Israel's Army Radio his unit was prepared to block the ship.

Flotilla interview, Jon Snow.

From Channel 4 news, June 1 2010.

(Well done Mr Snow!).

Tuesday, June 01, 2010

Israel Flotilla Raid

More from the Guardian

3.53pm:

More reaction from those caught up in the flotilla violence. Tom Phillips is in Rio de Janeiro for the Guardian.

The Brazilian filmmaker Iara Lee, who was onboard the Mavi Marmara when it was stormed, claimed the Israeli troops had invaded the ship and "started shooting at people."

"It was a surprise because it happened in the middle of the night, in the darkness, in international waters, because we knew there would be a confrontation but not in international waters," she told Brazil's TV Globo on Tuesday.

"Their first tactic was to cut all of our satellite communications and then they attacked," Lee said, reportedly speaking from an Israeli prison in the city of Beersheva, 80km from Jerusalem, where she was under arrest.

"All I witnessed first hand was the shooting," said New York-based Lee, who has also lived in Iran and Lebanon. "They came onboard and started shooting at people."

Lee, a former director of the Sao Paulo film festival and whose film Synthetic Pleasures was nominated for a Sundance award in 1996, said the operatives then sent the women to a lower level of the ship.

"They said we were terrorists – it was absurd. They came into the part where the women were, lots and lots of them, dressed in black and with gigantic weapons as if they were in a war."

"They confiscated all of our telephones and all of our luggage that was on the ship and took everything out of the bags and put it on the floor."

Lee said she planned to return to Brazil and then to the US where she would continue her activism. "Justice will not come quickly, we will have to continue working," she said.

3.41pm:

The civil society organisation Avaaz has set up a petition calling for a full investigation into the flotilla incident and an end to the Gaza blockade.

The petition will be delivered to the UN and world leaders when it reaches 200,000 signatures, according to Avaaz.

"We call for an immediate, independent investigation into the flotilla assault, full accountability for those responsible, and the lifting of the Gaza blockade," the organisation says.

The petition has attracted 14,000 signatures in the last couple of hours and is growing fast.
Avaaz petition

The missing Scottish journalist...

Herald Scotland

Missing Scot had warned of bloody outcome
BACKGROUND: Alison Campsie
1 Jun 2010

The last message left by Hassan Ghani from on board a ship that formed part of the Gaza aid flotilla contained a clear warning of the threat he was facing: “Israeli ships sighted on radar. Approaching.”

Glasgow-born Ghani, 25, has not been heard from since. The update was posted on his Facebook page from the Mavi Marmara passenger ship on Sunday night, shortly before Israeli commandos dropped from a helicopter on to the deck, later opening fire on those on board.

The Stirling University graduate, now a London-based journalist for Iranian TV station PressTV, had been covering the Gaza aid attempt for the past week. His reports warned of a potential bloody confrontation should Israeli forces intercept it.

Now an information blackout has left Ghani’s family juggling conflicting reports about his safety. No Facebook updates have been made and mobile phones remain dead.

His father, Haq Ghani, yesterday drove 600 miles from England to Glasgow to be with his family as they desperately awaited official word on his son’s whereabouts.

Mr Ghani, 60, said: “I have been told that no British passengers are among those who have been murdered, but it has not been confirmed. I have tried contracting the Foreign Office, but they have no power or status in Israel.”

Ghani’s sister Khadija added: “There have been so many rumours, saying one minute that he’s dead and another that someone has heard he’s fine. We’re all over the place at the moment.”

The aid flotilla was one of the biggest ever to flout the blockade placed on Gaza, which has prevented all exports and confined imports to a limited supply of humanitarian goods.

The blockade has been in place since 2007 and aims to weaken the influence of Hamas, which seized power that year. The end result has been appalling living conditions for Gaza’s 1.5 million residents.

The UN has said that 60% of households are short of food, with the same proportion of residents having no daily access to water.

The Mavi Marmara was carrying 100 tonnes of cargo including concrete, medicines and children’s toys, some of which had been collected from the Scottish public. Ali El-Awaisi, 22, an estate agent from Dundee, but Palestine-born, was also on board the Mavi Marmara, chartered by Turkish humanitarian group Insani Yardim Vakfi (IHH), when it was attacked.

He was planning to deliver 13 palettes of goods collected in the city in just a fortnight, a load with an estimated value of £30,000. It was also a personal mission for El-Awaisi, who has never met his seven aunts who live in Gaza.

His brother, Dr Khalid El-Awaisi, said they were both due to travel on the convoy but he let Ali take the only available space on board.

The Dundee University history and politics lecturer, who last spoke to his brother on Friday, said: “I was hoping to go along with him but then we heard that only one person could go. Now I wish I was there with him, just to make sure he is all right.

“Everyone was in high spirits, everyone was happy, positive that they were trying to get the aid into Gaza. The worst [thing] for us now is being completely cut off from what is going on. We are completely distressed about what has happened to our brother.”

Post officer worker Theresa McDermott, 43, from Edinburgh, was sailing on a smaller passenger boat that was part of the flotilla.

She left for Crete two weeks ago to train up new recruits to the aid mission.

McDermott was detained last year in Ramleh Prison by Israeli forces who intercepted the Lebanese cargo ship on which she was travelling on another aid mission. She made a second voyage on another ship, Dignity, and was aboard when it was rammed by the authorities, Carl Abernethy, who co-founded Free Gaza Scotland with McDermott, said he strongly rejected reports from the Israeli Government that those on board the Mavi Marmara were armed when the forces landed on the ship.

“This voyage was about ending the siege of Gaza and if this huge operation was successful in doing this, then the idea was to do it every month,” Abernethy said. “It wouldn’t be in anyone’s interests to sabotage this one.”

Abernethy said goods taken to Ireland by McDermott before she joined the flotilla in Crete had been checked for weapons by port authorities there and by representatives of the Free Gaza movement.

Abernethy added: “Theresa was excited but she was worried that if she was arrested and not back in Edinburgh on time her job might be on the line.

“Our concerns now are not only the plight of the people of Gaza, but also the families of those on board who have been murdered.”

The shootings follow a number of failed attempts to get aid to Gaza. Last year, the Spirit of Humanity was surrounded by Israeli Navy gunboats and ordered to turn around and return to Larnaca in Cyprus.

Last June, the same ship was apprehended and taken into custody in Israel. Cargo and the vessel were confiscated and the crew and passengers arrested and deported.

An editorial in the Palestine Telegraph last month argued that the Free Gaza organisation was pushing the limits and putting volunteers in danger by going ahead with the latest voyage at a time when the Israel Navy was in training to deal with the flotilla.

Also on the board the flotilla stormed yesterday were 1976 Nobel Peace Prize laureate Mairead Corrigan Maguire, of Northern Ireland, crime author Henning Mankell and Holocaust survivor Hedy Epstein, 85.

Delivering aid: the reporter, estate agent, postal worker and IT specialist
Hassan Ghani

A 25-year-old Stirling University graduate, from Glasgow, who was reporting from the aid ship when it was attacked. Ghani was with PressTV, an Iranian cable channel. His father Haq, who lives in Partick, spoke at a pro-Palestinian rally in the city last night.

Ali El Awaisi

The 22-year-old Dundee estate agent was on the ship to deliver supplies collected in the city, including a large consignment of concrete. A Palestinian by birth, he moved to Scotland just over 20 years ago and is a former history and politics student at Dundee University.

Theresa McDermott

A postal worker from Edinburgh and a veteran campaigner for human rights in Palestine was imprisoned in Israel last year after the navy intercepted a cargo of aid. The 43-year-old was on a smaller vessel in the flotilla and had gone to Cyprus to train new recruits on the aid mission.

Hasan Nowarah

A father-of-three and a Glasgow-based campaigner who had collected medicines.

The IT professional, 45, was born in Palestine but moved to Scotland 20 years ago. He was known to be travelling with the flotilla, but it is not clear if his boat was attacked by Israeli forces.

Israel Flotilla Raid

Guardian blog - being updated regularly.
An excerpt from it thus far:

UN calls for inquiry into Israel's assault on Gaza flotilla
• Free Gaza Movement says it will send two more ships
• Egypt opens border crossing with Gaza

2.31pm:

Some of the people onboard the MV Rachel Corrie ship, which was part of the Freedom Flotilla but was not seized by Israeli troops after falling behind others in the fleet, have been named.

Gaza campaigner Ali Abunimah has named 11 of the passengers on his blog:

• Mairead Maguire, the 1976 Nobel Peace Prize laureate, from Belfast, Ireland

• Denis Halliday, Manhattan, NYC and Connemara, Ireland.

• Matthias Chang Wen Chieh, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

• MP Mohd Nizar bin Zakaria, a member of the Malaysian Parliament.

• Shamsul Akmar bin Musa Kamal 46, Selangor, Malaysia

• Mr. Shamsul Akmar bin Musa Kamal, Malaysian journalist

• Mohd Nizar bin Zakaria 41 , Perak, Malaysia

• Abdul Halim Bin Mohamed 29 , Selangor, Malaysia

• Abdul Halim, broadcast journalist for news and current affairs Malaysia TV3

• Mohd Jufri Bin Mohd Judin 33, Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia

• Mohd Jufri, cameraman for news and current affairs Malaysia TV3.

While the Press Association is reporting that there are five Irish people in total aboard the MV Rachel Corrie, also including Fiona Thompson, a film-maker from Dundalk.

The ship will still head for Gaza according to the Free Gaza Movement.

"We are an initiative to break Israel's blockade of 1.5 million people in Gaza. Our mission has not changed and this is not going to be the last flotilla," Free Gaza Movement activist Greta Berlin, based in Cyprus, told Reuters.

However an unnamed Israeli marine lieutenant told Israel's Army Radio today his unit was prepared to block the ship.

"We as a unit are studying, and we will carry out professional investigations to reach conclusions," the lieutenant said.

"And we will also be ready for the Rachel Corrie."

The Army Radio station reported that the ship would reach Gazan waters tomorrow, however Berlin said it might not attempt to reach Gaza until early next week.

"We will probably not send her till [next] Monday or Tuesday," she said of the 1,200 tonne cargo ship.

2.15pm:

Turkey's Foreign Ministry says four Turkish citizens have been confirmed dead on the Mavi Marmara, while another five of the dead are also believed to be Turks.

Israeli authorities say they are still trying to confirm the nationalities of the dead. More as we get it.

2.06pm:

Reuters is snapping the following sentence:

"UN chief Ban Ki-Moon says if Israel had heeded calls to lift Gaza blockade flotilla incident would not have happened"

I'm guessing this means there is a statement coming from Ban. More to follow.

1.25pm:

From the Guardian's Middle East editor, Ian Black, on Egypt opening the Rafah border crossing to the Gaza strip:

In one of the first signs of fallout from the Gaza Freedom Flotilla incident Egypt has announced that it is opening the the southern border of the Gaza Strip at Rafah to allow the delivery of humanitarian aid to the Palestinians.

The crossing normally opens once a month for a few days. The sudden decision seems to show Egyptian embarrassment at Arab charges of complicity with the the Israeli blockade.

President Hosni Mubarak is deeply hostile to Hamas, which has close links to the Muslim Brotherhood, Egypt's largest – and semi-outlawed – opposition group.

1.14pm:

Matthew Weaver emails with a summary of the day so far:

• The UN has called for an independent inquiry into the raid, but its compromise statement on the incident stops short of an outright condemnation.

• The Free Gaza Movement has sent more aid ships to the blockaded area despite warnings that they will be stopped by the Israeli military.

• The Turkish prime minister, Recep Tayyip Erdogan, warned Israel not to test Turkey's patience. He called for Israel to be "punished" for the attack.

• More eyewitness accounts are emerging of what happened. Haneen Zuabi, a member of the Israeli Knesset who was on the Mavi Marmara, accused Israel of trying to "cause the largest number of fatalities" and said she did not hear any warning.

• The Foreign Office has confirmed that a British man was among the injured

• Israel has continued to insist that is troops were acting in self defence after they were attacked by activists.

12.23pm:

Haneen Zuabi, an Israeli-Arab MP in the Knessett who was on the Mavi Marmara, has accused her country of trying to "cause the largest number of fatalities".

She was released today after questioning and has been giving her version of events at a news conference, according to the Israeli news website ynetnews.com she told a conference.

"I entered the captain's room. He was asked to stop by the Israeli soldiers. He said, 'We are a Turkish ship.' We were 130 miles off. It was 11:30 pm. We saw four Israel vessels, they were at a distance because we were in international waters. At 4:15 am we saw the ships approaching.

"They were dinghies and choppers. At 4:30 am the forces landed quickly. I did not hear any warning from the ships, because noise was coming from the ships and the choppers. Within 10 minutes there were already three bodies. The entire operation took about an hour."

"There was not a single passenger who raised a club. We put on our life vests. There were no clubs or anything of the sort. There were gunshots, I don't know if they were live bullets or not. There were gunshots fired from the ships in our direction.

"A clear message was being sent to us, for us to know that our lives were in danger. We convened that we were not interested in a confrontation. What we saw was five bodies. There were only civilians and there were no weapons. There was a sense that I many not come out of it alive. Israel spoke of a provocation, but there was no provocation."

12.05pm:

Reuters has more from activists arriving at Athens airport – this is from Mihalis Grigoropoulos, who was steering one of the ships in the flotilla:

"They (Israelis) came down from helicopters and threw ropes from inflatable boats, climbing aboard. There was teargas and live ammunition.

"I was steering the ship, we saw them capture another ship in front of us, which was the Turkish passenger vessel with more than 500 people on board and heard shots fired.

"We did not resist at all, we couldn't even if we had wanted to. What could we have done against the commandos who climbed aboard? The only thing some people tried was to delay them from getting to the bridge, forming a human shield. They were fired upon with plastic bullets and were stunned with electric devices.

"There was great mistreatment after our arrest. We were essentially hostages, like animals on the ground.

"They wouldn't let us use the bathroom, wouldn't give us food or water and they took video of us despite international conventions banning this."

11.38am:

The news agency Reuters are running accounts of some of the activists in the flotilla.
Nilufer Cetin was travelling with her young son when the Israelli commandos boarded her ship.
"We stayed in our cabin and played games amid the sound of gunfire. My son has been nervous since yesterday afternoon ... I did not need to protect my son. They knew there was a baby on board. I protected him by staying in my cabin, then went to the bathroom. I put a gas mask and life jacket on my son. We did not experience any other problems on board, only a water shortage. We took walks on the deck, played games with my son. The curtains were drawn, so I did not see not the raid as it was happening. I only heard the voices. There are lightly and heavily wounded people.

"There are thousands, millions of babies in Gaza. My son and I wanted to play with those babies. We planned to deliver them aid. We wanted to say 'Look, it's a safe place, I came here with my baby-son'. I saw my husband from a distance, he looked OK. The ship personnel was not wounded, because they (the soldiers) needed them to take the ship to port. I will go again if another ship goes."

11.15am:

The Palestinian-led International Solidarity Movement is reporting that a US activist injured in protests in the West Bank yesterday has lost her eye.

An American solidarity activist was shot in the face with a tear gas canister during a demonstration in Qalandiya, today. Emily Henochowicz is currently in Hadassah Hospital in Jerusalem undergoing surgery to remove her left eye, following the demonstration that was held in protest to Israel's murder of at least 10 civilians aboard the Gaza Freedom Flotilla in international waters this morning.

21-year old Emily Henochowicz was hit in the face with a tear gas projectile fired directly at her by an Israeli soldier during the demonstration at Qalandiya checkpoint today. Israeli occupation forces fired volleys of tear gas at unarmed Palestinian and international protesters, causing mass panic amongst the demonstrators and those queuing at the largest checkpoint separating the West Bank and Israel.

Tom

(Previous post on Tom Hurndall)

His words:
'What do I want from this life? What makes you happy is not enough. All the things that satisfy our instincts only satisfy the animal in us. I want to be proud of myself. I want more. I want to look up to myself and when I die, I want to smile because of the things I have done, not cry for the things I haven't done. '

Tom Hurndall's sister, Sophie, talks to the Times

Tom Hurndall: his death was like a bomb going off in the middle of the family
As a TV drama examines the killing of Tom Hurndall by Israeli forces in Gaza; his sister talks for the first time about his death; the devastating impact that it had on the family and their campaign for the Palestinians
October 7, 2008, Penny Wark

In April, 2003, Tom Hurndall, a 21-year-old photojournalism student, was shot in the head by an Israeli Defence Forces sniper
Sophie Hurndall and her mother have found catharsis by working for charities involved in the Middle East

When a young person dies, the instinctive reaction of those who love him is to dwell on his qualities, often to a point where the lost one becomes a hero. He was extraordinary, courageous, determined to make a difference, they say. All those words have been used about Tom Hurndall and, as his sister Sophie likes to point out with amusement and affection, they are a considerable part of the truth, but not all of it.

“Tom is like every brother, he winds you up at times and seems like the most amazing person in the world at other times,” she says. “There's that constant balance of loving someone so much and not wanting to leave those irritating parts out.

“I say bad things about him because it makes me feel closer to him. You know, the pizza boxes covered in mould on his bedroom floor. For me these are the things that make him who he was. He was human and normal and sometimes very annoying and that's what made him real. The amazing things he did made him who he was as well. I need to see both to keep hold of him. I think if you put him on a pedestal you'd lose him. It wouldn't be him any more.”

In April, 2003, Tom Hurndall, a 21-year-old photojournalism student, was shot in the head by an Israeli Defence Forces (IDF) sniper as he tried to protect a group of Palestinian children in the Gaza strip. He died the following January without regaining consciousness. During those months and beyond the Hurndall family - dad Anthony, a solicitor, mum Jocelyn, a teacher, and Sophie, just out of university, (there are also two younger brothers, Billie and Freddie) - suspended their lives as they sought to discover how and why Tom had died, and in doing so they took on the IDF. Eventually the family's tenacious refusal to accept a cover-up forced the IDF to investigate and to acknowledge that Tom had been wearing the fluorescent jacket of a non-combatant and had not been caught in Palestinian crossfire. In 2004 Taysir Hayb, an IDF soldier, was convicted of Tom's manslaughter and sentenced to eight years in prison. Next week the Hurndalls' story will be the subject of a powerful Channel 4 drama-documentary, The Shooting of Thomas Hurndall. It has been made with the co-operation of his family and for Sophie, two years older than Tom, it is a way not only of pursuing his humanitarian agenda, but of feeling close to him.

We meet at her mother's home and sit in the patio garden Jocelyn created after Tom's death as a sanctuary for her family. Sophie is 29 now, outwardly cheerful and poised. As children she and Tom hurtled around together, climbing trees, exploring, exchanging the banter she regards as the sibling's way of being close without being cheesy. Tom would leave her lunchbox at the top of the highest tree (whether by design or absent-mindedness, she isn't sure) and claim that her toys were his, but at the North London family home he was her closest ally. Their parents' divorce six years before Tom was shot made them feel jointly protective of Freddie, who is 11 years Sophie's junior. She felt protective of Tom too, especially when, in 2003, he told her that he planned to go Baghdad to photograph the “human shields”. “I was angry, frustrated and afraid for him. I didn't want to come across as the typical big sister and say you can't go. It was hard. I tried to ask him a few questions to establish whether he knew what he was doing. I wanted to sow some doubt. It was things like, ‘Do you know what you would do if there were bombings around you? Do you know what you're getting yourself into?' He tried to laugh it off. It was bravado to make himself and me feel more at ease. There was some part of him that needed to put on a tough face for himself as well as for me to get through it.”

Sophie recognised that Tom was someone who wrote his own rulebook and that he was an idealist motivated by seeking truth. He had always intervened when he saw injustice, protecting bullied children at school, confronting a man mugging a child near his mother's home. He went to Iraq and later to the Palestinian terrortories, she believes, because he had become aware that abuse of civilians was being misreported. “I think that took a huge amount of courage. You almost delude yourself to get through and he was conscious he was doing that and writes in his diary about having to pretend things are OK just to do what you believe in.”

There were divisions in the family about whether to read his diaries; some have read bits, others haven't. “Through his diaries we know how he was making his decisions,” Sophie says. “In some ways his decision-making fills me with terror, but there's pride and admiration too. Also anger because I get pissed off with him sometimes.” She laughs. “Why the hell did you put us through this? But it wouldn't have been Tom to have done anything else.”

His death has changed her, of course. Initially she was angry about the IDF's dismissive response and threw herself into the family's campaign to seek accountability. “We did a lot of running around and trying to make a difference and being worthy in a crazy and intense way. It was like a bomb had gone off in the middle of the family. We rowed over things that didn't matter.

“It's taken a long time to get back to a point where we can be around each other and not be thinking ‘but Tom should be here too' - for that to be so painful that you don't want to look at your brothers because they remind you of him, or have a conversation with your mum who's going to talk about how much she misses him until you want to scream. I feel like after five years we're coming back together.”

Both Sophie and her mother have found catharsis by working for charities involved in the Middle East - Sophie, who once planned to be a psychotherapist, now works for Medical Aid for Palestinians (Map). Discovering that her brother is one of thousands of civilians killed by the Israelis in the occupied territories was shocking and salutary, she explains, and gives her job an emotional force she finds irresistible.

“That was almost more shocking than what happened to Tom and the loss and the grief and the pain and watching him dying and not being able to turn his life support machines off and fighting with the doctors over whether they could or couldn't. You can't use morphine, it has to be by the withdrawal of food and water, a hugely traumatic process. I can't put into words how awful that was. Not quite as bad was the number of Palestinian families that were coming to us saying this [Tom's shooting] is exactly what happened to my brother or my sister. That opened my eyes and I needed to do something to help to support Palestinian civilians who don't have any recourse to justice. What I find shocking is the consistency with which the IDF proactively covers up this kind of case.”

She cites the 13-year-old Palestinian girl shot on her way home from school, the woman refused help at a checkpoint as she was in labour (her baby died). She has often thought about how she would feel if she saw Taysir Hayb, whose actions have made her feel full-blown fury, she says. Almost as emotionally difficult is the prospect of visiting Gaza for her job - for the first time since Tom's death - next year. “I very much want to go and I'm terrified of going. Just to get through the checkpoint without shouting, punching, screaming is going to be very hard, knowing what Palestinians have to go through every day. I don't know how much strength it must take to get through that and not fight back.

“Tom has come to define my life. I still wear his ring. I'm terrified of losing it because I feel if I do I'll be losing the last thing of Tom. I've had several near misses. But I think working for Map and the film helps me to feel a bit like Tom's still alive.” She raises her voice in a question mark.

“I don't know that there's a feeling of obligation, but there is part of me that feels closer to Tom by following the path that he left for us. Once your eyes have been opened I don't think you can turn and go back.”

The Shooting of Thomas Hurndall, Channel 4, October 13, 9pm

Medical Aid for Palestinians: 020-7226 4114, http://www.map-uk.org/

The Israeli attack on humanitarian aid

Civilians from more than 30 countries were on those floatillas of humanitarian aid. More than 30 news agencies were aboard. There was only aid on those floatillas.
The situation could not be more clear cut.

videos of protests
guardian

UN calls for inquiry into Israel flotilla attack
UN security council stops short of full condemnation after pro-Palestinian activists killed in botched Mavi Marmara raid


Harriet Sherwood in Ashdod and Matthew Weaver guardian.co.uk, Tuesday 1 June 2010 07.55 BST

The UN security council has called for an impartial investigation into Israel's botched assault on a flotilla carrying aid supplies to the Gaza Strip, but it stopped short of an outright condemnation of the attack.

In a carefully worded compromise statement drafted after ten hours of debate the security also called for the immediate release of hundreds of civilians held after the raid.

At least nine pro-Palestinian activists were killed in the raid yesterday as Israeli naval commandos stormed the Mavi Marmara, the largest ship in the flotilla carrying passengers. Dozens more were wounded, including at least one British man. The injured were taken to Israeli hospitals. It sparked a wave of global condemnation and protests.

Israel said more than 10 of its troops were injured, two seriously, in the battle that began early yesterday in international waters, about 40 miles from the Gaza coast. Israeli officials say about 50 of the 671 activists aboard the flotilla have been taken to Israel's international airport for deportation.

The flotilla was trying to break the Israeli blockade of Gaza, which has been enforced for the past three years.

Organisers of the flotilla said today they are sending two more ships to the area within the next few days. Greta Berlin of the Free Gaza Movement said a cargo boat is already on the way to challenge Israel's blockade of Gaza and a second boat carrying about three dozen passengers is expected to join it.

After a 10-hour emergency meeting that stretched into the earlier hours of today, the 15 council members agreed on a presidential statement that was weaker than that initially demanded by the Palestinians, Arabs and Turkey.

They had called for condemnation of the attack by Israeli forces "in the strongest terms" and "an independent international investigation".

But the statement said: "The Security Council deeply regrets the loss of life and injuries resulting from the use of force during the Israeli military operation in international waters against the convoy sailing to Gaza. The Council, in this context, condemns those acts which resulted in the loss of at least ten civilians and many wounded, and expresses its condolences to their families."

Last night Turkey, whose relations with Israel have been severely strained since the war in Gaza in 2008-09, called for Nato to convene over the military assault.

The Turkish prime minister, Recep Tayyip Erdogan, who ordered the recall of the country's ambassador to Israel, described the operation as "state terrorism" and said Israel had violated international law. "We are not going to remain silent in the face of this inhumane state terrorism," he said.

Israel immediately imposed a communications blackout on the detained activists – some were taken by bus to Beersheva prison in the south of Israel – while simultaneously launching a sophisticated public relations operation to ensure its version of events was dominant. Its prime minister, Binyamin Netanyahu, who defended the assault, postponed today's meeting with Barack Obama at the White House back to deal with the crisis.

Activists with less serious injuries began to trickle into Israeli hospitals late yesterday afternoon. There were believed to be about 27 British civilians aboard the flotilla, and last night the Foreign Office confirmed that at least one had been injured. Most of the dead were reported to be Turkish nationals.

The deaths and injuries were condemned by the UN, EU and other countries. The US, in contrast, was restrained in its response, expressing regret and saying it was "currently working to understand the circumstances surrounding this tragedy".

The UN secretary general, Ban Ki-moon, condemned the violence and called for an investigation. "I am shocked by reports of killing of people in boats carrying supply to Gaza. I heard the ships were in international water. That is very bad," he said.

The prime minister David Cameron described the assault as "unacceptable". In a telephone conversation with Netanyahu last night, the prime minister insisted Britain remains committed to Israel's security, but called for a "constructive" response to "legitimate criticism" of its actions.

The foreign secretary, William Hague, issued a statement "deploring" the loss of life. "There is a clear need for Israel to act with restraint and in line with international obligations," he said.

The Palestinian president, Mahmoud Abbas, described the storming of the flotilla as a "massacre" and called for three days of national mourning. Israel's navy had promised to exercise restraint in dealing with the flotilla, and the bloodshed will inevitably leave Israel open to charges of a disproportionate response involving excessive force.

The Israeli government, however, defended its actions saying its troops had been provokedby activists aboard the Mavi Marmara.

However, some Israeli commentators expressed reservations about the operation, fearing it would leave Israel internationally isolated. Alon Liel, a former Israeli ambassador to Turkey, told the Guardian the situation could have been averted. "Definitely we made mistakes and in retrospect anything would have been better – including letting the boats reach Gaza," he said.

The assault began at 4.30am as the convoy was heading to Gaza to deliver its aid cargo. According to a spokeswoman for the Israeli defence force (IDF), Avital Leibovich, officers aboard its warships gave the activists several warnings before commandos were winched from helicopters on to the deck of the Mavi Marmara.

"We found ourselves in the middle of a lynching," she told reporters in the Israeli port of Ashdod. About 10 activists had attacked commandos, taking their pistols, she said. "It was a massive attack," she said. "What happened was a last resort."

It was impossible to contact protesters on the ships, but the Free Gaza Movement, one of the organisers of the flotilla, said the IDF had started the violence, firing as soon as troops boarded the ship.

The Free Gaza Movement said later that one of the ships in the flotilla, the Irish-owned MV Rachel Corrie, was not intercepted, as it had been behind the rest of the vessels following a delay. Carrying among others the Northern Irish Nobel peace laureate Mairead Corrigan-Maguire and Denis Halliday, the Irish former UN assistant secretary, it remained in international waters off Gaza, pending a decision as to where it would head next.

The Mavi Marmara was brought into port at Ashdod, 23 miles north of Gaza City, last night following the earlier arrival of two other passenger ships. The area was closed to the media.

Activists were expected to be processed in a large white tent on the quayside, where they would be offered the choice of immediate deportation to their country of origin or going through the lengthy process of the Israeli courts system.

The Israeli authorities gave no details of the injuries to activists, but confirmed that nine were dead, although government sources said the figure could rise.

Israel advised its nationals in Turkey to leave the country for fear of reprisals.


Israeli police cancelled leave and the army was on high alert, saying it feared possible rocket attacks from Islamist militants in Gaza and southern Lebanon. Last night a rocket fired from Gaza landed in Israel. No one was injured.

foreign policy - well worth reading

Israel's latest brutal blunder
Posted By Stephen M. Walt Monday, May 31, 2010 - 11:10 PM


By now you'll all have heard about the IDF's unwarranted attack on the Gaza Freedom Flotilla, a fleet of six civilian vessels that was attempting to bring humanitarian aid (i.e., medicines, food, and building materials) to Gaza. The population of Gaza has been under a crippling Israeli siege since 2006. Israel imposed the blockade after Gaza's voters had the temerity to prefer Hamas in a free election held at the insistence of the Bush administration, which then refused to recognize the new government because it didn't like the results.

Late Sunday night, IDF naval forces and commandos attacked one of the unarmed ships in international waters, killing at least ten of the peace activists and injuring many more. IDF spokesman claim that the use of force was justified because the passengers resisted Israel's efforts to board and commandeer the ship. Other Israeli officials have sought to portray the activists, whose ranks included citizens from fifty countries, a Nobel Peace Prize winner, a former U.S. ambassador, and an elderly Holocaust survivor, as terrorist sympathizers with ties to Hamas and even al Qaeda.

My first question when I heard the news was: "What could Israel's leaders have been thinking?" How could they possibly believe that a deadly assault against a humanitarian mission in international waters would play to their advantage? Israel's government and its hard-line supporters frequently complain about alleged efforts to "delegitimize" the country, but actions like this are the real reason Israel's standing around the world has plummeted to such low levels. This latest escapade is as bone-headed as the 2006 war in Lebanon (which killed over a thousand Lebanese and caused billions of dollars worth of damage) or the 2008-2009 onslaught that killed some 1300 Gazans, many of them innocent children. None of these actions achieved its strategic objective; indeed, all of them are just more evidence of the steady deterioration in Israel's strategic thinking that we have witnessed since 1967.

My second question is: "Will the Obama administration show some backbone on this issue, and go beyond the usual mealy-mouthed statements that U.S. presidents usually make when Israel acts foolishly and dangerously?" President Obama likes to talk a lot about our wonderful American values, and his shiny new National Security Strategy says "we must always seek to uphold these values not just when it is easy, but when it is hard." The same document also talks about a "rule-based international order," and says "America's commitment to the rule of law is fundamental to our efforts to build an international order that is capable of confronting the emerging challenges of the 21st century."

Well if that is true, here is an excellent opportunity for Obama to prove that he means what he says. Attacking a humanitarian aid mission certainly isn't consistent with American values -- even when that aid mission is engaged in the provocative act of challenging a blockade -- and doing so in international waters is a direct violation of international law. Of course, it would be politically difficult for the administration to take a principled stand with midterm elections looming, but our values and commitment to the rule of law aren't worth much if a president will sacrifice them just to win votes.

More importantly, this latest act of misguided belligerence poses a broader threat to U.S. national interests. Because the United States provides Israel with so much material aid and diplomatic protection, and because American politicians from the president on down repeatedly refer to the "unbreakable bonds" between the United States and Israel, people all over the world naturally associate us with most, if not all, of Israel's actions. Thus, Israel doesn't just tarnish its own image when it does something outlandish like this; it makes the United States look bad, too. This incident will harm our relations with other Middle Eastern countries, lend additional credence to jihadi narratives about the "Zionist-Crusader alliance," and complicate efforts to deal with Iran. It will also cost us some moral standing with other friends around the world, especially if we downplay it. This is just more evidence, as if we needed any, that the special relationship with Israel has become a net liability.

In short, unless the Obama administration demonstrates just how angry and appalled it is by this foolish act, and unless the U.S. reaction has some real teeth in it, other states will rightly see Washington as irretrievably weak and hypocritical. And Obama's Cairo speech -- which was entitled "A New Beginning" -- will be guaranteed a prominent place in the Hall of Fame of Empty Rhetoric.

How might the United States respond? We could start by denouncing Israel's action in plain English, without prevarication. We could help draft and push through a Security Council resolution condemning Israel's action and calling for an international commission of inquiry to determine what happened. And if American intelligence was monitoring the flotilla -- and it should have been -- we should make any information we collected available to the commission. We could also cancel or suspend elements of our military aid package to Israel. And we could say loudly and clearly that the blockade of Gaza is illegal, inhumane and counterproductive, and openly press Israel and Egypt to lift it immediately.

But even strong measures like these won't solve the underlying problem, which is the conflict itself. I've learned not to expect much from this administration when it comes to pushing the two sides toward a settlement, as Obama talks a good game, but doesn't follow through by putting meaningful pressure on the two sides. This latest incident, however, might convince Obama that he was right to put the Israeli-Palestinian issue on the front burner when he took office, and wrong to cave into Netanyahu when the latter dug in his heels last summer (2009) and again this past spring. The result of those retreats was a waste of precious time, while the situation in the Occupied Territories deteriorated.

Because time is rapidly running out on a two-state solution, Obama should seize this opportunity to explain to the American people why a different approach is needed and why bringing this conflict to an end is a national security priority for the United States. He should also explain why using U.S. leverage on both sides is in Israel's interest as well as America's interest. And he will need to bring some new people on board to help him do this, because the team he's been using has spent more than a year without achieving anything. (If his economic team was this decisive, our economy would still be spiraling into the abyss.) Getting the so-called "proximity talks" restarted doesn't count, because those discussions are a step backwards from earlier face-to-face negotiations and because they are likely to fail.

A third thought has to do with Israel itself, and especially its present government. How are we supposed to think about a country that has nuclear weapons, a superb army, an increasingly prosperous economy, and great technological sophistication, yet keeps more than a million people under siege in Gaza, denies political rights to millions more on the West Bank, is committed to expanding settlements there, and whose leaders feel little compunction about using deadly force not merely against well-armed enemies, but also against innocent civilians and international peace activists, while at the same time portraying itself as a blameless victim? Something has gone terribly wrong with the Zionist dream.

Fourth, this incident is a litmus test for the "pro-Israel" community here in the United States. One of the reasons why Israel keeps doing foolish things like this is that it has been insulated from the consequences of these actions by its hard-line sympathizers in the United States. AIPAC spokesmen are already bombarding journalists and pundits with emails spinning the assault, and we can confidently expect other apologists to prepare op-eds and blog posts defending Israel's conduct as a principled act of "self-defense." And if the Obama administration tries to proceed in any of the ways I've just suggested, it can count on fierce opposition from the most influential organizations in the Israel lobby.

In this context Peter Beinart's recent article in the New York Review of Books is even more salient, especially his question:

The heads of AIPAC and the Presidents' Conference should ask themselves what Israel's leaders would have to do or say to make them scream "no." ... If the line has not yet been crossed, where is the line?"

Over the next few days, keep an eye on how politicians and pundits line up on this issue. Which of them thinks that Israel "crossed a line" and deserves criticism -- and maybe even sanction -- and which of them thinks that what it did was entirely appropriate? Ironically, it is the former who are Israel's friends, because they are trying to save that country before it is too late. It is the latter whose misguided zeal is leading Israel down the road to further international isolation -- and maybe even worse.

The FT - a slightly more right wing take on the matter:

Israel faces global backlash
By Tobias Buck in Jerusalem and Daniel Dombey in,Washington

Published: June 1 2010 03:00 Last updated: June 1 2010 03:00

Israel faced furious international condemnation yesterday after naval commandos attacked a convoy of ships carrying aid to the Gaza Strip, killing at least nine pro-Palestinian activists and wounding many more.

Three of the boats were flying the Turkish flag and several of the passengers killed are believed to have been Turkish citizens. Turkey's government recalled its ambassador from Israel and gave warning that relations between the two countries had suffered irreparable damage.

Recep Tayyip Erdogan, Turkey's prime minister, accused Israel of "inhuman state terror" and last night Ankara was leading a push at the United Nations for an international inquiry.

The Israeli forces attacked the flotilla of six vessels from helicopters and warships just before dawn, in international waters between Cyprus and the Gaza coast. Israeli officials said the troops opened fire only after coming under attack by activists, who charged them with knives and sticks, and allegedly fired live rounds.

Footage released by the Israeli authorities showed soldiers leaving a helicopter and abseiling on to a ship, only to be set upon by activists and beaten to the deck.

Benjamin Netanyahu, Israel's prime minister, said the soldiers "had to defend themselves and defend their lives or else they would have been killed". Seven of the Israelis were wounded.

However, the organisers of the convoy accused the commandos of firing "directly into the crowd of civilians asleep".

The incident put an end to the most ambitious attempt yet to break Israel's blockade of Gaza, which is ruled by Hamas, the Palestinian Islamist group.

But analysts warned that the assault by the naval Shayetet 13 commando unit was likely to carry a significant political price. Ban Ki-moon, the UN secretary-general, said he was "shocked" by the killings, stressing that the boats had been in international waters.

The UN Security Council was in emergency session last night seeking to agree a formal statement. Turkey said such a declaration should not just back an inquiry but also demand an Israeli apology and the release of the ships. Although such a move would fall short of a Security Council resolution, any UN backing for an international investigation would be deeply unwelcome to Israel.

While France called for an investigation that met international standards, the US, Israel's closest ally, did not endorse an international inquiry. US diplomats said they wanted to avoid any action that could jepoardise Middle East peace talks.

Ahmet Davutoglu, Turkey's foreign minister, told the Security Council that Israel had "lost its legitimacy as a respectful [sic] member of the international community" and called for the country to "be held accountable for its crimes". In its testimony to the council, Israel said the flotilla's organisers were connected to terrorists.

Mr Netanyahu cut short an official visit to Canada and the US to return to Israel to deal with the crisis, postponing a planned meeting today with Barack Obama, the US president, in Washington. Mr Obama spoke to the Israeli leader on the telephone, saying that he "understood" Mr Netanyahu's decision to return home and deeply regretted the loss of life.

William Hague, Britain's foreign secretary, called for an "impartial investigation" into the incident and said one British citizen had been wounded.

Israeli leaders defended the assault and blamed the casualties on the activists. Danny Ayalon, Israel's deputy foreign minister, described the flotilla as "an armada of hate and violence" and accused its organisers of a "premeditated and outrageous provocation". He said Israel had offered to allow aid into Gaza through the usual channels, but the convoy had been seeking a new route for weapons shipments to militants.

Monday, May 31, 2010

Israel attack humanitarian convoy

Guardian stream - more later. More than 35 international news organisations were on this unarmed convoy of humanitarian aid, which had been checked by international auditors to check the convoy was ok and legal prior to setting off.
So far, 19 innocents dead. RIP.

The free Gaza movement


Civilians Under Attack by Israel Written by Free Gaza Team 31 May 2010
Posted in Press releases

(Cyprus, June 1, 2010, 6:30 am) Under darkness of night, Israeli commandoes dropped from a helicopter onto the Turkish passenger ship, Mavi Marmara, and began to shoot the moment their feet hit the deck. They fired directly into the crowd of civilians asleep. According to the live video from the ship, two have been killed, and 31 injured. Al Jazeera has just confirmed the numbers.

Streaming video shows the Israeli soldiers shooting at civilians, and our last SPOT beacon said, “HELP, we are being contacted by the Israelis.”

We know nothing about the other five boats. Israel says they are taking over the boats.

The coalition of Free Gaza Movement (FG), European Campaign to End the Siege of Gaza (ECESG), Insani Yardim Vakfi (IHH), the Perdana Global Peace Organisation , Ship to Gaza Greece, Ship to Gaza Sweden, and the International Committee to Lift the Siege on Gaza appeal to the international community to demand that Israel stop their brutal attack on civilians delivering vitally needed aid to the imprisoned Palestinians of Gaza and permit the ships to continue on their way.

The attack has happened in international waters, 75 miles off the coast of Israel, in direct violation of international law.

Saturday, May 29, 2010

The rescue!

Turkey: Boy Saved From Escalator Plunge
Shopkeeper sees 4 year old grab hold of escalator, and rise up on the OUTSIDE, and dangle dangerously. He rushes over, positioning himself below the 4 year old hanging from the floor above, poised ready to catch the child if he fell. Child lost grip. Child fell. Shopkeeper caught child. Child went home from mall with his father.
Respect to you shopkeeper Ali Apari!

Capturing a time...

... reflecting on a period. How much things have changed. How much things haven't changed.

Guess Who's Coming to Dinner , a film worth watching. This is the monologue at the end of the film, which summarises much of the film, and ties it together beautifully. Although obviously, the whole film needs to be watched to do it justice.



As a by the by, a quote from one of the actresses:

"There are a lot of movies out there that I would hate to be paid to do, some real demeaning, real woman-denigrating stuff. It is up to women to change their roles. They are going to have to write the stuff and do it. And they will."

Beah Richards

Friday, May 28, 2010

Poem : "Hope" is the thing with feathers

"Hope" is the thing with feathers

"Hope" is the thing with feathers—
That perches in the soul—
And sings the tune without the words—
And never stops—at all—

And sweetest—in the Gale—is heard—
And sore must be the storm—
That could abash the little Bird
That kept so many warm—

I've heard it in the chillest land—
And on the strangest Sea—
Yet, never, in Extremity,
It asked a crumb—of Me.

Emily Dickinson

Sunday, May 16, 2010

mind stunting technology

Confessions of a Tech Apostate - newsweek

President Obama says devices like Apple's iPad are rotting our brains. He's right.

President Obama has been taking some heat in techie circles over comments he made at a commencement address over the weekend about iPods and iPads and other digital distractions. Because of these things, he said, "information becomes a distraction, a diversion, a form of entertainment, rather than a tool of empowerment, rather than the means of emancipation." To his critics, it made him sound, well, like a Luddite, not the cool, tech-friendly, BlackBerry-carrying president they thought he was.

I hate to say this, but he's right. In fact I'd expand his list of distractions to include Web sites like Facebook and Twitter. And I'd go further on the notion of emancipation and say that in many ways our digital tools serve only to enslave us. This may sound like heresy coming from a technology editor but hear me out.



Remember when computers were supposed to save us time? Now it seems just the opposite. The Internet just keeps giving us more ways to do nothing.

We have more information than ever before. We're never away from it. The air around us fairly hums with it. Computers are all around us too—they're on our desks, in our pockets, on our coffee tables.

And yet I can't shake the sense that we are all becoming stupider and stupider—and that we are, on average, less well informed today than we were a generation ago.

I mean, look at us, lining up outside Apple stores like a bunch of kooks. Or walking around, staring down at our phones. We've been turned into zombie people.

Oh, but we're very, very busy zombies. We're reading e-mail. We're tweeting and retweeting. We're downloading apps, and uploading photos. We're updating our Facebook status and reading our news feeds and telling the whole world what we like and don't like, because for some reason we imagine that the whole world actually cares. You know what we're not doing? We're not thinking. We're processing. There's a difference.

We're putting our brains into neutral, and revving the engine. We're digitally dithering, clicking on links and swimming through a torrent of useless garbage being thrown at us by idiots and self-promoters, pundits and PR flacks and marketing people.

We're immersing ourselves in games like Farmville and Mafia Wars, obsessing about earning energy packs, spending billions of dollars on virtual gardening tools.

We're turning the world around us into a videogame, using sites like Foursquare to tell our friends where we're eating lunch, and competing to see who can become "mayor" of some restaurant.

Meanwhile, in the midst of all this, Glenn Beck has become an influential television commentator, and Sarah Palin is a credible candidate for president in 2012. You think this is a coincidence?

No way. What's happening is this: we are being so overwhelmed by the noise and junk zooming past us that we're becoming immune to it. We've become a nation of Internet-powered imbeciles, with an ever-lower threshold for inanity.

Beck and Palin are the inevitable outcome of that devolution. They are what we deserve. They are, in fact, what we've created.

We have amazing new systems and tools for communicating information. The problem is we've become so fascinated with the means of transmission that we've lost sight of what's actually passing along over the wires and airwaves.

Sadly, I don't see that changing any time soon. If anything, I imagine it will get worse.

Daniel Lyons is also the author of Options: The Secret Life of Steve Jobs and Dog Days: A Novel.

© 2010

An identity issue...

an identity issue in Lebanon


and in Europe, a left over of WW2

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Poem: 'Gaudeamus Igitur,'*

'Gaudeamus Igitur,'* by John Stone

For this is the day of joy
which has been fourteen hundred and sixty days in coming
and fourteen hundred and fifty-nine nights
For today in the breathing name of Brahms
and the cat of Christopher Smart
through the unbroken line of language and all the nouns
stored in the angular gyrus
today is a commencing
For this is the day you know too little
against the day when you will know too much
For you will be invincible
and vulnerable in the same breath
which is the breath of your patients
For their breath is our breathing and our reason
For the patient will know the answer
and you will ask him
ask her
For the family may know the answer
For there may be no answer
and you will know too little again
or there will be an answer and you will know too much
forever
For you will look smart and feel ignorant
and the patient will not know which day it is for you
and you will pretend to be smart out of ignorance
For you must fear ignorance more than cyanosis
For whole days will move in the direction of rain
For you will cry and there will be no one to talk to
or no one but yourself
For you will be lonely
For you will be alone
For there is a difference
For there is no seriousness like joy
For there is no joy like seriousness
For the days will run together in gallops and the years
go by as fast as the speed of thought
which is faster than the speed of light
or Superman
or Superwoman
For you will not be Superman
For you will not be Superwoman
For you will not be Solomon
but you will be asked the question nevertheless **
For after you learn what to do, how and when to do it
the question will be whether
For there will be addictions: whiskey, tobacco, love
For they will be difficult to cure
For you yourself will pass the kidney stone of pain
and be joyful
For this is the end of examinations
For this is the beginning of testing
For Death will give the final examination
and everyone will pass
For the sun is always right on time
and even that may be reason for a kind of joy
For there are all kinds of
all degrees of joy
For love is the highest joy
For which reason the best hospital is a house of joy
even with rooms of pain and loss
exits of misunderstanding
For there is the mortar of faith
For it helps to believe
For Mozart can heal and no one knows where he is buried
For penicillin can heal
and the word
and the knife
For the placebo will work and you will think you know why
For the placebo will have side effects and you will know
you do not know why
For none of these may heal
For joy is nothing if not mysterious
For your patients will test you for spleen
and for the four humors
For they will know the answer
For they have the disease
For disease will peer up over the hedge
of health, with only its eyes showing
For the T waves will be peaked and you will not know why
For there will be computers
For there will be hard data and they will be hard
to understand
For the trivial will trap you and the important escape you
For the Committee will be unable to resolve the question
For there will be the arts
and some will call them
soft data
whereas in fact they are the hard data
by which our lives are lived
For everyone comes to the arts too late
For you can be trained to listen only for the oboe
out of the whole orchestra
For you may need to strain to hear the voice of the patient
in the thin reed of his crying
For you will learn to see most acutely out of
the corner of your eye
to hear best with your inner ear
For there are late signs and early signs
For the patient's story will come to you
like hunger, like thirst
For you will know the answer
like second nature, like first
For the patient will live
and you will try to understand
For you will be amazed
or the patient will not live
and you will try to understand
For you will be baffled
For you will try to explain both, either, to the family
For there will be laying on of hands
and the letting go
For love is what death would always intend if it had the choice
For the fever will drop, the bone remold along
its lines of force
the speech return
the mind remember itself
For there will be days of joy
For there will be elevators of elation
and you will walk triumphantly
in purest joy
along the halls of the hospital
and say Yes to all the dark corners
where no one is listening
For the heart will lead
For the head will explain
but the final common pathway is the heart
whatever kingdom may come
For what matters finally is how the human spirit is spent
For this is the day of joy
For this is the morning to rejoice
For this is the beginning
Therefore, let us rejoice
Gaudeamus igitur.


* Therefore, let us rejoice
** 1 Kings 3:16-27